i am who i am,
and i am who i meant to be.

i'm overly exhausted and still have more to go, but i do want to post this entry as that one fine day i felt practically overwhelmed and wish to prevent that from happening again.

i detest it when people perceive or assumed a situation wrongly and they blame your ignorance and they blame you for the lack of initiative when they do it themselves. humans tend to not blame themselves and in a way that's natural. and we're hypocritical like this, which is part and parcel of life.

there are some situations in life where you find yourself not being able to be yourself. and the reason is because you a) tend to forget who you really are or b) you're basically trying too hard. occasionally i do feel as though i'm slipping back to my old self where i do admit i hate those traits that i present.

you know, the wise old people often say as we grow older life gets tougher? now that i'm moving to another chapter of my life, i got to agree with the sentiment. its just like it gets harder as you climb up a mountain with high altitudes and lack of oxygen.

people tend to be biased in every day's life. we don't notice it often, but when we do, it becomes an ultimate realisation.

i tend to forget my place occasionally, especially when i don't see them. i guess it's hard trying to cope yourself when you have many others to cope with. however, as i start to settle in, i find myself going back to myself and embark on a journey to open up once again. this closet door that has been shut is beginning to open and hopefully it doesn't close back. it is when i do start to open up and other people are alongside with me, that i begin to find friends that are truly 'friends' and not just the passing friends which we say hi and bye too.

i'm glad. life has taken a turn, and maybe that step to a brighter future.